zero cash in hand...?

have you reached your cash limit till you cannot withdraw any from the ATM?
i had!

the first one was last month...
i was going to fly to btu and i got sick! i started vomitting..
i thought i was having GAS ELECTRIC ATTACK (gastric)..
so i took gastric pills and just head off to KLIA.
kat dalam teksi tu pakcik tu tanya ok ke tak..saya kata saya kena gastric.. p
astu dia kasi pulak pill gastric dia.. baik betul pakcik tu..
sampai kat KLIA..kuar kan beg, berlari-lari nak ke toilet..
nak muntah lagi! astaga! tak sempat lah nak pi toilet..
terus muntah kat dalam tong sampah...boleh tak?

and i am very sure that no one saw me..hehe..
selepas muntah tu i terus berlalu la nak buat apa lagi kan kat tong sampah tu..
lepas tu ada pulak makcik tunggu kengkawan dia kat tong sampah tu. .. aisey..

lagi beberapa minit nak naik kapal terbang muntah lagi..tapi sempat berlari ke toilet la..
the crew almost refused to let me board the plane..
they said if i was sick the captain might reject me..
i was like... what??? mana boleh.. i was supposed to work.. i couldn't cancel the flight!
i managed to look calm and 'fit' and said convincingly that i was cool.
nasib baik boleh naik..

tapi punya la seksa dalam kapal terbang tu ok!
aku muntah lebih kurang 10 kali la sepanjang perjalanan tu..
habis paper muntah tu aku pakai..nasib baik dok sensorang..

sampai btu, dah la kat tempat orang..i brought with me around RM50...
bila sampai je Rm10 belanja bebarg makan macam susu dan meggi..
pastu colleagues suruh pergi klinik gak sbb sakit tak habis2 ..
muka dah pucat cam nak mampos..kena bayar doktor tu RM40 pulak ok!!!!
pokai dah saya! uwaaaaaaaaaa...rupanya kena food poisoning.. hampeh!

i reached the lowest point of cash availability now.

i was really out of cash..i had a few ringgit in my pocket.. ermm..
how am i to eat for the next one week?
i tried to withdraw my money tapi aku ada RM48.56 sahaja..aiyahhhh..
nasib baik colleagues i semua pemurah.. diaorg belanja aku makan..
sob sob sob..korang tak tau betapa aku nak menitis kan air mata nih..

pastu bulan berikutnya terjadi lagi.. it's like ...this month lahhh!!!
aku tinggal RM49.++ je.. tension betul..seperti biasa ..
ramai yg pemurah.. but when i had to go back i had to go back by taxi..
i almost cried again..
ye lah kalau tak balik i tak bule panjat Bukit Kutu dgn Bapak dan kawan2...
nasib baik ada org nak balik sekali ke KL masa tu.. dia yg bayar ehhe..
i'm so grateful..very grateful

pastu pi BUkit Kutu senarnya ada dalam RM9 je dalam purse.. tapi nak gi gak..
last2 mintak hutang dulu la dgn Bapak...Bapak baik...sorry ek Bapak..nanti saya bayar.. janji.

i balik ofis the following week, i knew one opis mate owed me RM20..
terus mintak kat dia...dia cuba cari duit, in fact he had only RM5 with him..
(tapi everyday pon dia ada RM5).. dapat gak la..
dia pon tak sangka aku pun macam dia, pekerja yg ketidak-cukupan uwang .. hahahah..

pastu i tau i bole mintak Rm200 coz i gave those rm200 to my brothers for his duit belanja..
Bangah, awak tau tak kakak awak terpokai teruih? cian kakak awak..
awak belajar lah rajin2 ... Banglang pon belajar la betul2... berangan time nak tido jer ok?
nanti siapa nak support Syafiq belajar pulak.. next year it is his turn...

ok lah..hari ni saya belanja terlebih ikut nafsu... RM10 utk makan sahaja! oh tidakkkkkkk!
roti boi sampai 2 ketul boleh tak? isk isk isk.. mana tak bulat...kekekekeke.

it's not the mountain that we conquer

"it's not the mountain that we conquer, but ourselves." Sir Edmund Hillary

it was a wonderful journey never the less, even though there were only 8 of us.
terima kasih kepada Bapak yg penat2 mengangkat segala muatan.
Bapak hebat la Bapak...semua orang sayang kat Bapak.

ingat lagi bila kita semua tengah duduk rehat, tetiba Bapak kata..
"Penat tak???...Penat kannnnnn..."
ehehehe...so funny.

pepagi tu Suhaila,Murni,Mimi dan Lia seblum kol 8 dah sampai kat Projet gombak...memang teruja betul la diaorg ni nak pi memanjat...tapi Adik baru balik dari Kenyir, dia penat, jadi dia sampai lambat, tapi sampai jugak la kan sebab nak naik Kutu punya pasal..pastu Bapak ambik Lan kat terminal putra...muka Lan macam muka terpaksa ikut..masam jer... ye lah..memang terpaksa pon ... kan kan kan...senarnya Lan tak sudi ikut kitaorg..:P~

The only reason i joined the activity was because Bapak kata ianya sebuah bukit...
tapi dari gambar yg kitaorg tengok, puncak bukit ni macam di atas paras awan...tak mungkin ianya sebuah bukit bukan?
tapi percaya kat Bapak punya pasal kita ikut jer..

sampai kat pekan KKB menom2 jap pastu saya beli kudap2 & selipar jepun...
(selipar tu senarnya baru beli ok...
rupa2nya yg lain sumer tak bawak selipar gak kecuali Adik hehehehe)

did you know it took us more than 4 hours to get to top because we were all pancit...
i mean us girls lah .. Bapak hebat,Adik hebat...Lan hebat gak tapi dia kena 'cramps' sebab dia minum air Oren..dia kata air oren PUAKA (mmg terkenal kasi 'muscle cramps'..the best is of coz AIR KOSONG)
sebenarnya on the way nak naik tu saya hampir rasa nak pengsan..tapi diaorg dgn sabarnya suruh saya berehat dan memberi dorongan kepada saya agar terus naik...bile dah sampai puncak tu kena kutuk la kan hehehehe.
I have to say, this activity is ADDICTIVE.. do you know why? sebab masa tengah memanjat tu, tak pikir ape dah, tak pikir masalah hari2, masalah negara ke negeri ke, masalah keje ke, semua tak pikir... otak mmg concentrate nak letak kaki satu lagi di hadapan kaki satu lagi...PURELY for SURVIVAL...if you don't move, you die.. something like that hehehehe..

sampai kat puncak je semua terjelepuk kepenatan...tapi Bapak terus bekerja..
Bapak suruh semua org pi amik gamba (nak Ralitkan kitaorg sambil dia pasang khemah)...
pastu dia terus amik air, kuar kan segala peralatan memasak seperti periuk, Stove, beras, kobis, bawang,carrot dan macam2 lagi lah... Lan & Adik tido dulu sebab diaorg penat.
air perigi SEJUK giler ok!!! tapi dah lama tak mandi cara primitif ni..kitaorg tergedik-gedik membersihkan diri kat perigi tu.

(gamba Lia Laici wanita melayu malaya menarik air dari perigi)

Dinner kari ayam & tomyam fishball were delicious...tapi kitaorg mmg ada rasa agak takut sikit la sbb kitaorg tak ramai.. ada terasa diperhatikan..bunyi burung hutan teramat lah kuat, tapi kitaorg semua kontrol rileks.. i'm sure yg lain2 ada baca 'something-something'..hehe...coz i sure did!

esok nyer kitaorg pi Kubu British tu.. Bapak naik ke kubu pakai KAIN PELIKAT sahaja ok..hehe..kenapa la kerajaan kita tak ambil INISIATIF utk menjaga bangunan2 lama...terbiar jer kubu tu dgn semak samun...ia bule menjadi tempat pelancongan tau..

anyway, the view was sweet..it wasn't the best view because it wasn't really good weather.. but we're fascinated anyway :)

Pals...you all are amazing...i highly salute your patience...& you are among the sweetest people i've ever known...Suhaila, Murni, Mimi, Lia, Adik, Lan, Bapak...it's been a wonderful journey :) walaupun kepada Bapak & Adik ini trip santai2 jer..ermmmm...

btu

i'm back in bintulu in less than a week...
apa2 plan pun tak boleh buat ok..
i am not sure what happened to me but ever since i got here last Friday my eyes hurts...they are red! my colleague who took the same flight as mine also suffers the same thing..our eyes are plain tired of the surrounding maybe? air pollution? argh dunno really.

downloading New Kids on the Block videos..ahhh the good old days!
how i missed my younger days!!! :P~

those days anything we did was fun and interesting..semua best la.. maklum lah, baru menerokai dunia lah katakan..macam beruk dapat bunga rasa syok gilerrr...zaman budak2 mmg la suka layan kartun,he-man,thundercats voltron,dungeons & dragons,etc etc etc...best giler! tetiba teringat kartun NKOTB pun layan gak dulu..dah obses lah katakan!
*thanks oldschool for the cartoons' themes!!

memula NKOTB pastu layan Nirvana..tukar grunge pulak lah kan..
i remembered wearing thick eyeliner during school and also in Uni...

(I love Nirvana)
No.. i was not trying to copy Kurt Cobain.. i just love the eyeliner.. i got a big crush on eyeliner.. eyeliner is like a facade,or masquerade..my real emotions won't show with the thick eyeliner..
ok ok ok .. i hate to admit it, tapi sekarang terbongkar la rahsia kenapa saya pakai celak tebal-tebal.
nothing to do with being grunge or what.. it's just i love thick eyeliner! until now i still do tapi macam tak sesuai pulak dgn keje aku..kengkadang je aku pakai.

*aku tau Ernie,ko mmg suka gelakkan aku tapi aku tetap sayang ko aku tak tau kenapa...sbb aku rasa ko ni mmg jenis spread love kot hehehe...your big heart has embraced me right from the day we met (poyo!!! padahal ko la antara org pertama yg gelakkan aku masa darjah 5 dulu)... but anyway,thank you for being you! :)

when i was eating at a restaurant with my colleague just now, ada lah bebudak UPM kat sini makan kat meja sebelah.. watching them talking and laughing about the tinniest and silliest thing made me reminisce my childhood, my adolescence, university years (even though those days were really bleak)..but still i'm alive and have so much to be thankful for..

bila pikir balik, syok la masa dulu..lagu2 dulu2 pon syok...layan jiwang,layan sentimental, layan metal, layan mental hahaha...semua layan la wa cakap lu.

i'm going hiking weekend ni no matter what... i know i know i am not fit.. but i am going to try anyway..

piah dah start yoga..jangan main-main..lepas ni badan Piah bule lipat-lipat la ... kepak sana-sini ... pergh hebat.

aku? aku yoga dlm tido jer.

hari-hari

Hari-hari?
apakah tajuk post ini? macam pasaraya hari-hari tu ke?

takde lah merepek jer..

anyway, this month i feel so tired.
ke penat dari bulan lepas tak habis lagi?
biar benar? or is it my body getting old?
i think i have to start yoga lah.. tengok majalah hati yoga tu macam menarik hati jer..i am sooooooooooo lack of proper exercise.

sekarang tengah syok layan lagu rock kapak jiwang karat.
Lefthanded lah, Ilusi lah, Fotograf la, Search la,Medicine la,BPR la,XPDC la dan byk lagi tak tertulis lah.....korang mmg rock laaa!!!!!
thanks to my galpals who also love these rock bands i love you girls!!!

they told me to watch the movie ROCK... i tgk sikit je i teringat kat someone yg betul2 nak jadi mat rock tapi takde rezeki..it makes me feel sad...he's a good guy, tapi apa nak buat takdir tak menjanji kan sukses di bidang itu..i terus stop tengok movie tu.

i went to watch Ella at Planet Hollywood... best nyer... artis dulu2 memang best laa... artis zaman sekarang cannot beat them i tell you.
V.E. naik atas pentas nak nyanyi sama Ella, tapi tak keluar suara!!! aduihhhhh kalau i tutup muka jer.
nasib baik Ella sporting dia tak nyanyi lebih2 tau.. u all patut praktis dgn lebih lagi..mmg tak dapat nak lawan pengalaman dan profesinalisma Ella.

i watched gangstarz for the first time last 2 weeks... aduih..kenapa i rasa sakit kepala bila tengok program tu? i watched it at this restoran in shah alam..i came there for the acouastic band tapi depa sibuk nak tgk program tu..bingit dengar suara yg tak harmoni sampai jadi tak selera makan...

apa nak jadi laa ... kalau P.Ramlee dan Sudirman tengok menangis kot.